hello i am a single mom to 6 children, 2 are successful married adults not living with me and supporting themselves and family working and being honest good people. i have 4 children i am caring for alone ages 13 son, with extensive heart condition since birth with extensive medical bills to which i am greatful for all doc.s and childrens hospitals and staff for the gift of my childs presence. 10 yr old smart strong willed stubborn daughter who is very hard to live with or understand her emotional ups and downs at home , but is a well mannered respectful child at school and to authority figures and anywhere she goes , maintains grades and schoolwork to her best ability by her own will.Then there are my 2 babies 4 and 3 , 13 months apart and not at all planned but greatful for the blessing to have them, 2 girls. The last 2 are the only of my children i have not had in daycare from 6 weeks on and have been at home with their whole lives. Of course there are lots of disadvantages to this blessing not ever being able to my for their needs and wants. and always having to say no, never able to afford birthday parties, gifts, movies, trying to keep just shoes on all 4 growing feet has been hard and not accomplished yet. being a working single mom for so long who never needed anything from anyone and always helping my friends family even strangers with money , favors , even vehicles, to being helpless depressed not feeling of worth, having nice things living comfortably to having nothing. no credit cards no bank acct no car no money no social or family events. keepin my head down, slowly my money was becoming less and less until it was gone and along with my job my income my car my childrens baseball, basketball and recreational and clothing school supplies and even haircuts are obsolete. cant even buy thier school pictures. i want to work thats the hard part i dont want to live like this, i am not happy at all, but jobs are few and now my age as became a factor. all my so called friends have abandoned me , i guess it was the kindness and the money that they were true too it wasnt me, my family ?? what family they turned a cold shoulder to me as well. how do i start again, i just need a helping hand someone with a heart an ear a shoulder, i am so alone, so desperate, so sad and angry. i have lived in the same place for 13 years and this is the first time ive struggled to pay my full rent i am a month only this month behind and after 13 yrs of faithful on time payments i got served with a 3 day that ends today..... life is definitly taking a toll on me , beleive me i thank god for all that i do have but my faith is fading im scared ill go homeless and what happens to my kids ????i would die without them, i need them and my 2 babies i cant bear to think how they would handle not only being apart from me but thier so close what would they feel without each other. please help anyone,, please......
